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You are so selfish.
I loved you. I waited for you. I wanted nothing more than to be with you.
You were the only reason I stayed alive.
Yet you left me without a second thought.
You once said you were just toying with me. I did not believe you then; now, I wonder if you were truly telling the truth.
Your life was hell, that much is true.
However.
We could have figured it out. Together.
You never were one for teamwork, were you? But we worked. Didn’t we?
You will never read this; a silly thought, shallow, there is so much you will never do.
Never again will you smirk when I do something you like, or frown when I don’t; never again will you grin, look at me like I’m an invaluable gem, or make me feel like I am one.
I loathe the way the ocean reminds me of you. The way I imagine you running in it and begging me to join you. How I dream about you teaching me how to swim, how to live in your world, so we can be one with the water, together. I wonder if your body is at peace in it by now.
I miss you every day. The scar you left me with mocks me every time I look at it. I never want it to fade. I never want to forget your face, your hands, your voice, your laugh.
When my father died, I felt nothing. I thought I was unable to feel grief.
You taught me just how wrong I was.
Every shooting star I will ever see will be met with the same wish. Every tear I shed will contain a part of your essence. I do not wish to ever recover, for, if I do, it will mean you’re really gone.
I know my thoughts are foolish, I know writing this letter is useless, still, I beg of you,
Come back to me.
Forever yours,
Woo Seulgi.