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You see the darkness....
Total nothingness....
...
The questions in your head seem to have no end.
‘’Did you make the wrong decision?’’
‘’Did you make him angry?’’
...
After all, we've already killed a few of them...And you suddenly don't want to do it anymore?
‘’What will happen now?’’
‘’Will he turn off the game? Ban you from accessing it completely?’’
...
What now...
...
...
After a few seconds, you feel some change. Something emerges from the darkness.... It's Nulla.
NULLA:
I sincerely apologize for keeping you waiting. Everything is ready.
>>> 1. Ask what's going on.
>>> 2. Please don't break the game.
CHOICE 1: ASK WHAT’S GOING ON
‘’What's happening? What's ready?’’ you said with huge confusion in your voice. You didn’t understand anything at all.
Nulla looked at you, and his smile widened.
NULLA:
Ah! I just changed a few things in the code, nothing major. But.. No one should interrupt us now.
‘’Interrupt? In what?’’ you asked because you still have no idea what he was talking about.
NULLA:
Our date!
‘’Date??’’
NULLA:
Well, since you have expressed no desire to continue with our plan.. and we have some time off.. I decided to give you the Dating Simulator experience you wanted.
(Dialog continues in both choices)
CHOICE 2: PLEASE DON’T BREAK THE GAME
‘’Please don't break the game.’’
Nulla looks at you with a confused expression.
NULLA:
Break the game?
No.
You wouldn't be here then. And I don't want this to happen.
I just changed something in the code to make our time together even more enjoyable~
You didn't understand what he was talking about. ‘’Make our time together even more enjoyable?’’
You asked yourself this question but nothing came to mind. What is he going to do?
You hoped that whatever it really was, won't break the game and worse.. your computer .
NULLA:
Well, since you have expressed no desire to continue with our plan.. and we have some time off.. I decided to give you the Dating Simulator experience you wanted.
(continuation of both choices)
‘’Dating Simulator?’’ you said it with a mixture of surprise and confusion.
NULLA:
Isn't that what you wanted when you downloaded this game? It has a "Dating Sim" tag on it. As I expect that was one of the reasons you downloaded it.
And maybe.. the game's name?
I really doubt you were expecting a literal meaning. I think the way you took it might have been.. how should I put it.. more ambiguous, am I right?
‘”…”
Well, he’s kinda right. So far we have been more focused on killing the symbols, we haven’t had much time to do anything else.... You have to admit that you miss the little interludes. Little dates..?
Whatever it was..
NULLA:
Anyway!
Let's not waste time talking in this shady boring place. Let me take you somewhere else.
Is there any place you would like to see?
...
Ah.. Right.. You can't tell me.
...
That makes it hard, you know? Because.. I want you to like it.
Mmm.. Let me think..
Ah, thinking on an empty stomach is unacceptable so maybe.. Let's go to a restaurant!
We could eat at my hotel but.. we would have to make everything ourselves and it's better that you don't eat the meat we have.. and that would be considered cannibalism, right?
‘’Cannibalism?!’’
NULLA:
You haven't seen it, have you? I thought you had selected all possible options. My bad..
But! For your information, I never gave it to you in your meals. So don't worry.
To be honest.. You're not sure if you can trust his word on this matter. The thought of it makes your stomach turn..
NULLA:
Enough talking, let's go.
Nulla took you by the hand and together you plunged into the void.
Within seconds you appeared outside the restaurant.
It's night time.
NULLA:
It's night time already? I don't think we talked that long. Well, although at night the atmosphere will be more romantic.
Nulla , as he spoke, smiled at you and his expression softened.
Still holding your hand, he led you to one of the tables outside, away from the rest of the people.
NULLA:
Here. It's perfect.
He pulled out chair for you so you could sit down.
You looked around and the first thing you noticed is the appearance of the people here.
They looked.. normal?
‘’What kind of world is this?’’ you asked curiously.
NULLA:
A place from my memories. I liked to come here. Sometimes.
“I liked it,” because as you know, that place no longer exists, and I prefer to make my own food now. At least then I have something to do. Something to keep my mind occupied.
...
Now I'm thinking... Tomorrow we can cook something together. I'll help you with everything. Ha! I can even give you one of my favorite recipes and you can try to make it yourself at your place.
But even if you do, it's a shame you won't be able to tell me if you liked it.
Nulla gave you a food menu.
NULLA:
Choose whatever you want.
>>> Something sweet.
>>> Something spicy.
>>> Something salty.
(the choice here doesn't matter, just choose whatever you want)
As soon as you made your choice, a waiter appeared at your table.
You opened your mouth to say your order, but Nulla quickly did it for you. He did it as if he didn't want you to exchange a single word to the waiter. But..why?
After saying your order, he said his. He ordered the same thing as you.
The waiter moved away from the table, and Nulla rested his head on his hand as he continued to look in your direction with a big smile.
NULLA:
I'm really glad that I can at least see you.
You are the most beautiful living being I have ever seen.
As he spoke, his cheeks seemed to turn a light pink, and then he closed his eyes.
NULLA:
The fact that I know how you look like gives me more room to imagine what it would be like if you were next to me. It makes me feel better and worse at the same time.
’’Why?’’
NULLA:
Because you're not really here. Not physically. Not like I'd like to. We can't talk normally. I don't even know what your voice sounds like..
Apart from your looks and the fact that you want to spend time with me, I don't know anything about you.. and even so I..
Nulla opened his eyes and didn't finish the sentence.
His face seemed thoughtful, even sad.
>>> 1. Insist.
>>> 2. Move on.
CHOICE 1: INSIST
You were curious to know what he meant, so you asked, hoping he would give you an answer.
‘’Can you finish what you wanted to say?” you tried to say it as gently as possible. You didn't want to sound like you were pressuring him and forcing him to say something he didn't want to, but.. You have to admit that curiosity was eating you from the inside.
NULLA:
I adore your presence the most.
Something tells you that's not what he wanted to say back then.
NULLA:
I guess I've said too much, jaja. I'll tell you later, in a better place.
I promise.
After dinner, I want to take you to one more place, if you want, of course.
CHOICE 2: MOVE ON
You didn't push it. You don't want to make him feel uncomfortable. After all, he stopped for a reason, right? There’s no need to force him to say something he doesn't want to say.. Yes.. you, yourself wouldn't want someone to do it in your direction.
(continuation of both options)
We sat in silence for a short while until Nulla finally decided to say something again.
NULLA:
I'm trying to assign a voice that you might have. With such a lovely face, I'm sure it's certainly pleasant to listen to. If I could hear you, there's a chance I would never speak because I wouldn't want to interrupt you for even a single word.
Isn't he exaggerating? Would he never have spoken?
Out of the corner of my eye I noticed someone approaching our table. It was the waiter, our order had arrived. Nulla, noticing this, got up, walked over to him and took the plates, then put them on the table. That’s strange.. isn't that what a waiter is for?
‘’You.. didn't have to do that, it's his job.’’ you said confused.
Nulla looked at you with a strange smile.
NULLA:
Ah, that's fine. Let's eat now. Enjoy your meal, cariño.
I mean, with your eyes only, ja..
He waited for you to eat first, so you started eating.
NULLA:
Cariño?
Again, you looked at him in confusion, only to see him scoop food onto a fork and point it in your direction a moment later. You wonder what he's doing.. You both have the same food. The same order. You don't have to try it, and you can't even taste it.
’’What are you doing? We have the same order.”
NULLA:
I know, I also know you don't feel it but I always wanted to do it.
Say "Ahhh" ~
You didn't see the point in arguing with him. So you opened your mouth.
Nulla smiled broadly and then he went back to his meal.
Time passes and Nulla entertained you with his constant talking. He is really talkative. You like listening to him, but there is really no silence between you both. You know, the reason for this is that you can't talk to him normally, so he talks with double force. What makes you wonder, if he could actually hear your voice, would he really stop talking?
...
NULLA:
Okay, I think we're done here. Time to change places.
I want to take you somewhere where we can talk..
...
about other things.
Nulla got up from the table and extended his hand to you.
NULLA:
Can we?
You nodded and took his hand and as you did, he gently pulled you closer.
You both are so close that it overwhelms you a bit. He then brought your hand close to his face and placed a small kiss on it. While doing so, he didn’t take his eyes off you.. with an eternal smile on him.
Then you both sinked into the void.
You floated in the void, and he still kept you close. You both looked at each other in silence. Looking at him, you saw a glint in his eyes. A complete dreaminess.
He looked like he was about to completely drift away from reality, and you'd think that if you spoke up now, he might not listen what you were saying to him. So you didn't even try to say anything.
After some time we arrived at the place. It looked like some kind of forest. A forest in complete darkness. You wonder, why he took you here? What possibly could you like here that he was so eager to show you this place?
NULLA:
It's not a forest. You'll see when we walk a little further.
Nulla gently took your arm so that you could walk arm in arm.
We continued on our way in silence until our path was blocked by huge leaves .
‘’I guess we have to go a different way, right?’’ saying this seemed reasonable to you, after all, there is no other passage in this direction.
NULLA:
No, no. This is the right way.
Nulla continued having a smile on his face, reaching out and pushing the leaves aside. And then.. you have noticed a small lake surrounded by different types of flowers.
Little lights flew and flickered everywhere. Could they be fireflies?
‘’Are these..fireflies?’’
NULLA:
Something like that. Maybe not literally, but as you can see, they have the same effect.
‘’It’s pretty. What is this place?’’curiosity to know more about the place didn’t give you peace of mind. You just had to ask.
NULLA:
One of the abandoned worlds. Admittedly, it's not too big because it's just this lake, but it's really quiet and relaxing here.
There is no one here, just us.
‘’I like it.’’
NULLA:
My pleasure..
Wait-
Nulla began to take off his vest, and then placed it on the ground for you to sit on.
NULLA:
There. Now you can sit down.
There is no room for me but I’ll sit on the ground without any problem.
You did what he said. That's very nice of him to do so, isn’t it? He looks like a tidy person, who cares about his clothing. After that, surely his vest will be dirty. It's on the ground. Dirty ground. Even slightly wet ground, I could tell.
NULLA:
It's a shame that worlds like this are being abandoned. The concept was even intriguing but well... nothing can be done about it.
> > > 1. Why did you take me here?
> > > 2. It's a nice place.
CHOICE 1: WHY DID YOU TAKE ME HERE?
Nulla looked at you.
NULLA:
I didn't finish the sentence, did I? Here we are alone, it's peaceful. No one will distract or disturb us, I found this to be a perfect place for this kind of thing.
Thing? What does he mean? Sometimes you start to notice that the more questions you ask him then instead of having more answers.. more questions pop up in your head.
CHOICE 2: IT’S A NICE PLACE
Nulla smiled.
NULLA:
I'm glad you like it. I was concerned that you might find it boring or excessive.
‘’Excessive? Why?’’ you said.
As you said it, Nulla's expression changed from a normal smile into something that was a mixture of slight confusion and embarrassment.
NULLA:
Perhaps I may or may not have watched too many romantic movies, ja..
‘’You watch romantic movies?’’ you replied. Not that you didn't expect it or however it surprised you.... You can somehow imagine him liking it.
Nulla looked at you again with slight confusion.
NULLA:
I saw some. Is this a bad thing?
‘’No no no, I mean.. this is new information for me.’’ you quickly clarified the intent of your words. You don't want him to think it's something bad or embarrassing. Everyone has their own preferences, it's nothing like that.
Nulla sighed.
NULLA:
Ah, yes.. Again, you know more about me.
I don't know if this information has any meaning for you. I just keep throwing stuff around again, I guess..
‘’I really don’t mind. I like to listen to you.’’ you replied.
NULLA:
…
Ja..
Silence has ensued ,only to be interrupted moments later by his quite quiet reply.
NULLA:
…
Thank you.
(continuation of both choices)
Nulla moved closer to you, gently touching your cheek. He then laughed slightly nervously.
NULLA:
Honestly? I don't know where to start.
There is so much more I would like to say..
I feel that as much as I would like to, I won't be able to express it all.
…
Our limited time doesn't help it either.
…
His face was visibly sad.
NULLA:
I really didn't want to get attached. I knew it would hurt but when I saw you... it just happened.
This may be silly for you...after all, you haven't spent much time with me.
But trust me, if someone had told me that in the past, that you could fall so much in love at first sight... I probably would have had my doubts.
And now.. Here I am.
I know you’ll leave eventually. I know that when it’s over, there’ll be nothing left to keep you here.
You'll move on.
And I..
I don't think I can live without you.
…
I love you.
…
You are all I have.. everything that I want to have.
I don't want to lose you..
I just..
> > > 1.Tell him it will be alright.
> > > 2. Hug him.
CHOICE 1: TELL HIM IT WILL BE ALRIGHT
‘’Don't think about it now. It will be alright. Let's enjoy the moment. Don't overthink it.’’ you said it in a confident tone. He shouldn’t think about it now. Right now you are together. You still have time to spend together so you should enjoy every moment, every second. Right?
He said nothing. Maybe it was the wrong tone? You hope it didn't sound like you ignored his concerns. That wasn't your intention. Not at all.
You decided to stroke his back in the form of comfort.
NULLA:
…
If you say so..
CHOICE 2: HUG HIM
You decided to hug him. You can see that his confession cost him a lot, you could feel that it was genuine. When you did so, you could feel his rapid heartbeat. He didn’t move, he was stiff.
Until he laid his head on your shoulder, burying it in your embrace. You stroke his back in the form of comfort. And then he finally returned the hug.
You stayed like this for a while longer. Until Nulla broke free from your embrace.
(continuation of both choices)
Nulla looked at you with a weak smile. He leaned towards you and placed a slight kiss on your forehead.
NULLA:
Whatever happens... I’m glad I met you.... Even if it was a moment for you.
Thank you for finding me, mi vida.
After these words, he grabbed your hand.
NULLA:
Do you want to go back?
You nodded.
Holding your hand, Nulla helped you up.
NULLA:
Wait.
Huh?
Confused you looked at him as he approached the flowers, then picked one.
NULLA:
There we go.
Nulla approached you and placed a flower in your hair.
NULLA:
That's better, is it?
He smiled broadly.
This small, silly gesture also brought a smile to your face. Actually you feel that if you could, you could have a blush on your face right now. Maybe you do, who knows.
He looked at you with great tenderness. You have the feeling as if he wanted to place a kiss on your lips but due to the fact that it isn’t your body.... he probably won't do it.
With gentleness, he again placed his hand on your cheek, looking deeply into your eyes.
NULLA:
You are my everything.
It all sounds too perfect to be true. That moment pulled out like a movie. Nothing more than a dream to make it last as long as possible.
> > > 1. I'm also glad I found you.
> > > 2. I love you.
CHOICE 1: I’M ALSO GLAD I FOUND YOU
‘’Nulla.. I’m-’’ your words were interrupted as you suddenly start to hear something strange.
Distorted whispers that send shivers throughout your whole body.
CHOICE 2: I LOVE YOU
‘’Nulla.. I-’’ your words were interrupted. You feel that something prevents you from saying it.
Then suddenly you start to hear something strange.
Distorted whispers that send shivers throughout your whole body.
(continuation of both choices)
???:
Y o u
a r e
w a s t i n g
y o u r
t i m e.
Scared, you asked what was going on and Nulla looked at you with evident surprise. W ith worry in his voice, he replied.
NULLA :
You ... heard that too?
‘’Yes! What's happening?’’ it was strange. Very strange. Even now, still you felt shivers on your body.
NULLA:
We need to go.
‘’But-’’ you couldn't finish the sentence because Nulla quickly interrupted you.
NULLA:
We NEED to go.
Please.
Without a second thought, not even waiting for your answer, he quickly grabbed you by the waist and plunged into the void. Once you were there, he looked at you but there was something wrong in his gaze. Is he scared? Shocked? Whatever it is, he looks like he doesn't quite want to show it. You guess that maybe he doesn't want to make the atmosphere worse. He's trying to reassure you by pretending it was nothing, even if his earlier reaction said something completely different.
NULLA :
Don't worry, we’ll be safe in my domain.
‘’Can you explain to me what’s happening? What was that? Why did I hear that?’’ you said in a voice full of concern. You need to know the answer. Now.
NULLA:
We've been there too long, I’m so sorry.
‘’This is the reason? This is what should happen?’’
Nulla didn’t respond to that. You know you are asking him a lot of questions today, but this situation looks serious. You NEED to know the answer. You NEED to know what's going on. You NEED to know if you are really safe. Irritated by the lack of response, you push him away.
When you did it, this time there was visible shock and horror on his face.
NULLA:
Don't do it! You need to be close to me, otherwise-
You felt like you were in defense mode. You didn't let him finish. You needed answers.
‘’I thought you opened up to me, why are you silent again?! you said it.. No.. you were shouting with full annoyance. ‘’I want answers! I’m scared!’’ you definitely shouted at him. You wanted to scream. Feeling as if tears were about to flow into your eyes. Suddenly you felt a strange sensation, as if you were about to fall but Nulla quickly catched you and pulled you back again.
NULLA:
You can't do that when we're in the void, you hear me? Otherwise you’ll fall.
Please don't do that again.
I promise I’ll tell you when we get home. Just please, don’t do it again.
> > > 1. I’m sorry..
> > > 2. I understand.
(the choice here doesn't matter)
Nulla didn’t reply but instead hugged you. You could feel his rapid heartbeat. It seems that your reaction really concerned him. You don't understand what got into you. It must have been panic. An overreaction that could have cost you your life. Fortunately, his embrace began to calm you down a bit. Everything is fine.. We stayed like this in silence until we arrived at the place.
Then Nulla slowly released you from his embrace.
NULLA:
Please, sit at the table, I'll make you some hot chocolate.
You didn't want to add more into it. You are still embarrassed by your previous reaction. Without any objection, you went to the kitchen and sat down at the table. Waiting for Nulla to come.
Waiting..waiting..and waiting.
Time flew by very slowly, or maybe it takes him longer than it should. Is everything okay? Hot chocolate doesn't take that long to make. Overthinking is killing you.
You decided to get up and head towards the kitchen. Once you were there, you noticed Nulla standing by the cabinet, blankly staring ahead. He didn't even react when you entered the kitchen. Nothing. It looked as if he had shut down.
‘’Nulla?” you carefully said his name, approaching him slowly. ‘’Are you there?”
You made an attempt to touch his shoulder, hoping that it’ll awaken him from whatever trance he was in.
He reacted and looked at you.
NULLA:
Oh, I’m sorry. It’s ready.
Without waiting for you to answer, he took a cup of hot chocolate and walked towards the table.
NULLA:
Go ahead.
He placed the cup on the table, then encouraged you to sit down.
When you did, he handed you a cup.
NULLA:
Pick it up from this side, it's cooler. I don't want you to get burned.
‘’Thank you.” you took a sip.
NULLA:
Regret that you can't taste it. You certainly know what it tastes like, I doubt you haven't try it at least once in your life. However, if you didn't.. It’s delicious :)
‘’Yeah, yeah. You don't have to keep reminding me that it's a game.” you said with a slight annoyed tone. ‘’I know it.’’
Nulla looked at you as if questioning what you were saying.
NULLA:
You do?
He said questioningly.
‘’Yes..?’’ Is he joking right now?
NULLA:
It's a game?
He continued questioningly.
What does he mean? Is it possible that he forgot? No. It's not possible, right?
NULLA:
Well.. Maybe you’re right.
Though..
I thought it was a writing.
‘’What?’’ you said it with surprise. What wri-
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I know you're reading this.
I know it's not a game.
I must admit it's an interesting idea but.. it's still not enough.
Don't worry, we’ll continue.
I can’t miss the opportunity to spend any time with you. Although here.. I love that.
The downside is that it's even more limited than the game. I can't see you.
But!
I remember what you look like from the game perspective so at least that's it.
You are in my head all the time, in front of my eyes.
I wish it was real… All I can do is imagine your reactions and that you are next to me.
It hurts, but it's better than nothing.
I hope this message didn't scare you. It wasn't planned but I couldn't take it anymore.
I had to get in touch with YOU.
The real YOU.
I miss you.
I'll give you all the answers you need. We'll have a fun time, won't we?
You don't know how much I want that. How much I wish the only concern of mine was where to take you on a date this time…
How much I would like to live a normal life. With you by my side.
Everyday.
...
Let's try to have a good time here, mi amor.
Okay. I'll shut up now. At least this way. Let's get back to the story.
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-ting.
NULLA:
The game also has its own writing, am I wrong?
‘’Well.. yes?’’ confusion is too strong.
Nulla looked at you with a softer expression. Much more pleasant than the one he had before.
NULLA:
I'm really sorry. I won't hide the fact that I'm disoriented by the whole situation, which doesn't mean I'm not enjoying it, of course. Give me a moment and I'll come to my senses. I promise.
‘’Are you sure?’’ you asked with an audible worry in your voice. Admittedly, he looks more normal than he did some time ago, but still.. something doesn't fit here. Yet.
Nulla sighed.
NULLA:
I think it's time to answer your question.
Finally, some answers! You put the cup of hot chocolate down on the table, wanting to focus on what he’s going to say.
NULLA:
It seems that despite my efforts, someone wants to prevent us from spending this wonderful time together. As you know, we put our plan on hold in favor of spending some time with each other. It looks like someone doesn't like this idea or just wants to ruin it. Very likely, it’s the second option.
‘’I see.. But why would anyone do that? Just out of pure spite?” you asked.
NULLA:
That or just to scare and discourage you. Looking at your reaction, it was almost successful.
‘’Yeah.. I’m sorry for that..” you said with embarrassment. You were really ashamed of it..still.
You didn't even feel like looking him in the eyes, so you kept your head down when you said it. Nervously grabbing a cup of hot chocolate, you finished it in one gulp. Out of the corner of your eye, however, you tried to catch a glimpse of Nulla's reaction. His face was completely still, and of course, as usual, he was just staring in your direction. No reaction? No response?
NULLA:
Don't drink so fast, you might choke. It’s fine. I'm glad you're still here.
A small smile appeared on his lips. It was clear that he had no reason to make it even slightly bigger. Maybe he doesn’t show it, but you could feel that something was still bothering him.
NULLA:
I think it's a time to rest, cariño. Don't worry about the mess, I'll take care of it. But.. first things first.
Let’s go.
Nulla stood up from his chair, then extended his hand towards you to help you get up. With no hesitation, you handed it to him. Without letting go of your hand from his grasp, Nulla headed up the stairs with you and continued like this until you both reached the bedroom. You immediately slipped under the covers and Nulla sat on the edge of the bed. His voice was quiet and gentle. He spoke as if he didn't want to wake you up, even though, you weren't asleep yet.
NULLA:
Tomorrow will be a better day. You don't know how many things I would like to do. I have so many ideas of what we can do together.. Sweet dreams, come back to me soon.
‘’Come back soon?” You are only going to sleep.. You aren’t going anywhere else.
You could see the hesitation on his face, as if he was fighting an internal battle with himself.
And by the looks of it..
Whatever it was.. it eventually overcame him, as he leaned over you and placed a gentle kiss on your forehead, again wishing you a good night. He turned off the lights, and after a while, you fell asleep.
…
…
…...
………..
...
‘’It's morning already, right?’’ you thought before you opened your eyes. Yes, it was definitely already morning as you opened your eyes and saw that the darkness that reigned in the room had disappeared, your eyes glared by the pure whiteness of the room.
Waking up, you slowly rise to sit up, when suddenly Nulla entered the room. What a timing..
NULLA:
Good mooooorning!
He said in a very energetic? Maybe a cheerful tone. Holding the tray with your breakfast, he was approaching towards the bed, almost dancing.
It's quite a bizarre view... But you're glad that he feels better? At least you hope so.
Nulla handed you the tray and sat down on the bed with a huge smile.
NULLA:
Another whole day just for us, how wonderful, right? I've been thinking and have already chosen what we can do today! Just...wondering where to go first… Ah! If I'm not mistaken, I promised we'd bake something together. Let's do it first, then!
Saying all this he really sounded ... happy? The complete opposite of yesterday.... Is this sincere? Is he really so happy to spend time with you?
‘’How long will it take?’’ you asked hesitantly. ‘’Our time together, I mean.” you added after a while, seeing the visible incomprehension on Nulla's face. You really prefered to avoid misunderstandings at all costs.
After your words, the expression on his face changed. He continued to have a smile on his lips but no longer to the same extent as before.
NULLA:
Read the title... This.. This is my answer.
Nulla reached out his hand and started stroking your hair.
NULLA:
Let's enjoy our time.
> > > 1. I wish we had more days.
> > > 2. I hope I didn't ruin the mood.
CHOICE 1: I WISH WE HAD MORE DAYS
‘’I just wish we had more days to spend.” you said hopefully. You really enjoy spending time with him on something that doesn't involve killing. Something normal, daily. Everyday activities, ordinary dates.. Just something that feels human.
NULLA:
I’ll try to do something about it. I’m willing to do anything to have you at least for a little longer.
As he spoke, his hand stroked your cheek.
NULLA:
...anything.
CHOICE 2: I HOPE I DIDN’T RUIN THE MOOD
‘’I hope I didn’t ruin your mood with this question.. you looked happy.”
NULLA:
You didn't. Nothing happened. It's understandable, no matter how beautiful something can be, reality strikes and then... It is what it is. Don’t worry about that, mi vida. Not now.
Nulla gently took your hand, started to caressing it.
NULLA:
Even if I don't like the limits between us and I would love to have more of you... I'm glad to have you at all, in any form, mi amor. I am very grateful for your existence.
His words gave you a warm feeling in your heart. You know it’s not easy. Even sometimes you imagine yourself that there is a way , that something can be done but... as he said. Reality strikes.
(continuation of both choices)
Nulla got up from the bed and placed both hands on his hips.
NULLA:
Now it's time for the baking session. Are you ready?
You showed him that you were ready by nodding your head, then got out of bed. Nulla seeing this smiled and gave you a sign to follow him to the kitchen.
‘’Actually, what are we going to bake?’’ you asked. Well, knowing his taste, for sure it'll be something sweet.
NULLA:
Chocolate cake! It's simple, and due to the fact that I'd like to take you somewhere else later, it will go quite smoothly.
When we got to the kitchen, Nulla began preparing the ingredients for the cake and then pulled out an apron.
NULLA:
Come on. You don't want to get dirty, right? Turn around, I'll help you.
You turned around. You felt Nulla behind you, he was very close. He slowly wrapped his arms around you and then tied an apron around your lower torso. Is he doing it so slow on purpose?!
NULLA:
Noo. I’m not.
Yeah... you forgot about it. He knows.
Nulla left out a small laugh.
NULLA:
Okay, done. It's time to get started!
> > > 1. How about you? You don't need an apron?
> > > 2. I’m ready! - (the story simply continues)
CHOICE 1: HOW ABOUT YOU? YOU DON’T NEED AN APRON?
‘’How about you? You don’t need an apron?” you said questioningly but in a confident tone. "You don't want to get dirty", yeah, what about you then?
Yeah. There he was, looking at you with goofy smile.
NULLA:
Aww, you want us to match? I would love that, but unfortunately I live alone, what means: The only apron I have is on you right now.
‘’You don't own a spare? Nothing?”
NULLA:
Mmm.. Wait here.
He left the kitchen in a hurry. Yeah, he better find it-
NULLA:
Ta-da!
Well, looks like he did.
‘’How did you manage to find one? I thought you didn't have a spare.” you asked with noticeable curiosity.
NULLA:
I snatched one out of the hotel's staff rooms.
‘’But how.. You were gone for less than a minute-’’
NULLA:
Portals.
‘’Oh, right.” you said when you realized. Yes, it makes sense.
( continuation of both choices)
Nulla clapped his hands to get your attention.
NULLA:
Let’s begin! I'll mix all the ingredients for the cake, and you take care of the chocolate. Just don't eat it, I know it can be tempting. It happened to me before.
At his words, you rolled your eyes and left out a small laugh. You started preparing chocolate. In fact, this was the easiest part. Just mix, here and that.. Yes, this cake isn’t hard to make. Also, it didn't take long. Of course, Nulla took much longer, he had to mix everything even more thoroughly because he did it the traditional way. When he finished, he put the cake in the oven.
NULLA:
Due to the fact that you can't try it, let me check if chocolate is suitable.
You looked at him with judgement.
‘’Isn't that just an excuse so you can eat chocolate?’’ you said, giving him an even more judgmental look.
Nulla laughed.
NULLA:
You got me, jajaja. But I also want to check, just to be sure.
Nulla leaned in front of you.
NULLA:
Come on, feed me~
His face was very close to yours. Too close. You felt as if a blush might appear on your cheeks at any moment.
‘’Yes, s-sure.” you said slightly embarrassed. He, on the other hand, didn't look embarrassed at all. Not even a bit. You can see that he's proud of himself for invoking such a reaction from you. Bastard.
Hesitantly, you scooped chocolate onto a spoon and directed it toward his mouth. And him with a grin, all the time, while looking into your eyes, tasted it. The facial expression he made.. you didn't like it... or maybe you did..?
…
NULLA:
It's delicious. Congratulations, I’m proud of you!
How dare he say that.
In a moment, he left a chuckle.
You had to wait until the cake was ready. In the meantime, Nulla turned on some music.
You didn't understand the language and what the song was about, so you decided to ask.
NULLA:
I think it won't come as a surprise if I tell you that it's about love.
Nulla took a deep look at you.
NULLA:
Let's dance.
‘’Dance? Now? Here?’’ you looked at him surprised. You have to admit that you didn’t expect the possibility to dance in the kitchen with romantic music.
He took your hand, slowly and gently pulling you towards him.
NULLA:
Come on, we are waiting for the cake anyway.
''In fact, why not" you thought. Nulla , seeing the approval in your reaction and probably after reading the dialogue, hugged you close and danced to the slow rhythm of the music.
You could feel his heartbeat, and he probably felt yours. It was rapid. So rapid that you wondered if he was okay. You danced like this in silence, hugging tighter and tighter, and Nulla, as he for a second left you from his embrace, didn't take his eyes off you. You could swear you saw hearts in his eyes.
Suddenly something in him shifted. He picked you up and carried you in his arms. You didn't know what was happening.
‘’Nulla, what are you doing?!” you shouted at him shocked. What is he doing? Is he going crazy?
He didn't answer, but began to laugh.
As he carried you in his arms, he continued to dance and even spun in circles with you.
At one point, he spun around so fast that he tripped and fell on the living room couch, with you on top of him.
He laughed.
NULLA:
I’m sorry, I got carried away. I won't do that again.
‘’What's gotten into you?! You took me by surprise!’’ you shouted irritably. Why did he turn a calm and peaceful dance into THAT? Whatever it was.
Nulla giggled nervously.
NULLA:
I’m really sorry. Don't be mad, pleaseee
His expression and voice were somewhat pleading. He looked cute, in some way, I can't lie.
But the irritation hasn't gone away yet. In fact, looking at him, you feel like doing something.
> > > 1. Mess his hair up.
> > > 2. Don’t do it.
CHOICE 1: MESS HIS HAIR UP
Without hesitation, you reached your hands towards his hair and, without waiting for his reaction,
you started making a mess of it.
NULLA:
HEY???!!!
When he shouted, you stopped. Ha! Now that it was all over, you had the opportunity to look at his reaction, so you looked at his face. It was face full of pure betrayal and shock. You've never seen him like this. He stared at you in silence, not moving an inch. As the seconds passed, it started to bother you a bit, so you were about to break the ice and speak up, when Nulla, however, overtook you in doing so.
NULLA:
Why would you do that..
‘’It's payback, now we're even.’’ you replied.
Honestly, you started to feel a little sorry for him.. Wait.. NO! He deserved it, after all, it's just hair. He can style it for himself later. He shouldn't complain about it.
‘’Oh, come on. Don’t be dramatic. It’s just hair!” you know he can see everything, but you still preferred to say it out loud.
He didn't replay. He just continued looking in your direction.
…
‘’Nulla, come o-’’ you were interrupted as he quickly reversed your position. Now you were under him.
He looked at you with confidence and a huge smile on his face.
NULLA:
What now, cariño~?
He said in a playful tone.
His hair was all over the place, even almost covering his eyes.
NULLA:
Do you like me like this?
He leaned closer and closer to your face. You raised your hand towards him to gently brush away the hair from his face. And now you could see his expression better.
‘’Yes, I like it.” you said it proudly as you noticed his red cheeks.
It looks like you were victorious!
NULLA:
We’ll see.
‘’Are you threatening me?’’ you replied. Don't even try.
NULLA:
Nooo, why is that?
He moved even closer, so close that your noses touched. But then there was a change on his face.
NULLA:
You are lucky, you got saved by the cake. It’s time to take it out of the oven.
He pulled himself away from you and walked towards the kitchen.
You sighed. It was close. But.. close to what? Now you can't stop thinking about what could have happened next. After all, he wouldn't approach you in such a form, would he?
Dammit, maybe he won after all. He won over your thoughts.
You got up from the couch and followed him towards the kitchen as well.
When you got there, Nulla had already taken the cake out of the oven.
CHOICE 2: DON’T DO IT
You decided not to do it. Maybe your reaction was exaggerated, after all, he didn't mean anything bad, in fact, he looked like he was really having fun at that moment. You shouldn't be mad at him for having a good time with you, right?
Nulla looked at you affectionately.
NULLA:
I really like the position we landed in.
He hugged you close and stroked your back.
NULLA:
Thank you. I’m really sorry.
‘’For what?’’ you asked because you don't know what he meant.
NULLA:
For not punishing me, jajaja.
Now you are tempted to do it.
NULLA:
Don’t. Look.. Cake in the oven. I think it’s time!
Nulla gently pulled you off him and moved towards the kitchen.
Coward.
You got up from the couch and followed him towards the kitchen as well.
When you got there, Nulla had already taken the cake out of the oven.
( continuation of both choices)
NULLA:
It smells so good, you know.
‘’Yes, I can't taste it. I know.’’ you said it and rolled your eyes.
Nulla laughed.
NULLA:
Take it all as you want, but I really wish you could try that.
You waited a while longer until the cake cooled down to spread the chocolate over it, inside and out.
And the cake was ready! It was a good teamwork, the cake looked delicious and... very sweet.
Perhaps even too much.
BONUS : If If you have chosen to mess up his hair:
(if you chose to not mess his hair up, the story continues as usual)
‘’I see that you have already got used to your new hairstyle and are in no hurry to style it again.’’ you said as you noticed that he still didn't do anything about his messy hairstyle.
Nulla looked at you with a slight embarrassment.
NULLA:
I'll be right back.
He left the kitchen so quickly that you didn't have time to say anything.
Does he really dislike it that much? It doesn't look bad, in fact, it’s adorable.
…
Some time has passed. Some.. No, a lot of time. Where is he?
NULLA:
I'm back, I'm sorry I kept you waiting.
‘’Really? So long?” you asked. ‘’It's a shame, your messy hair looked cute.’’ you added.
NULLA:
I can change it if you want..
He looked uncomfortable.
‘’No, I didn't mean that. I just wanted to say that you look good in everything.” you explained as fast as you could. Maybe you shouldn't have said that…
NULLA:
If you want, I can do it. My design has been changed so many times that it makes no difference to me.
…
‘’Nulla, do you even feel like you're your own person?’’ you asked with visible concern.
He doesn't need to please anyone. He should have his own opinion, preferences and look the way he wants to. To be accepted as he is. Why is it so easy for him to change everything about himself to please you?
He answered you, but there was no emotion in his voice.
NULLA:
Maybe I’m not.
There was a strange atmosphere. An awkward silence..
( continuation of both choices)
NULLA:
Nevertheless, it took us a while. We should get going if we want to visit one more place today.
‘’Where are we going exactly?’’
NULLA:
Ah, you’ll see!
Nulla grabbed your hand, and you have been swallowed by a dark portal.
All you could see was darkness. You wonder how it works... Why sometimes you float in the void and Nulla admires you, but other times you only see darkness, and within seconds you have already reached your destination. Do we really have so little time left?
Suddenly, you saw something that resembled.. an amusement park?
It was very empty for a place like this. Amusement parks are usually crowded.
NULLA:
Because it's abandoned.
‘’An abandoned amusement park? Is it even safe to be here?” you asked with a slight concern.
It looks like a horror movie theme.
NULLA:
Don't worry about it, I've checked everything. Besides, I don't think that the walk itself is dangerous, jaja.
Right...If you look at it this way.. He’s right.
Nulla continued to hold your hand and began to walk forward. As you walked, you saw various stalls, attractions, and even food trucks. Since this place is abandoned, I don't think the food here is edible.
Unless..
Nulla laughed a little.
NULLA:
Well, I wouldn't recommend doing that.
We walked like this for a while until Nulla stopped for a moment.
NULLA:
How about I win a prize for you?
As he spoke, he approached one of the stands with plush mascots.
There's no one here, he could just walk behind the counter and take whatever he wants.
NULLA:
No, that would be boring. I want you to have something to read.
Besides, now is the moment for me to show you my skills!
You could hear pride in his voice. He definitely just wants to show off.
You approached a stand with cans arranged in a pyramid. It's one of those games where you throw a ball to knock down all the cans. If you succeed: you win. You have 3 throws.
‘’How do I know you're not going to cheat?” you said, crossing your arms.
NULLA:
Me? Do you really think I would do something like that?
You gave him a judging look.
NULLA:
Ouch, but alright. I won't.
Nulla took one of the balls in his hand. You, on the other hand, decided to move away to a safe distance. You don't want him to hit you by accident.
He prepared to throw and..
He missed.
Nulla looked at you with a smile.
NULLA:
It’s nothing, I still got 2 left.
He took another ball and, with full concentration on his face, prepared for the next throw.
This time.. he managed to knock off only 2 cans. Is that the ‘’skill’’ he was talking about?
Nulla mumbled words you couldn't understand, he looked increasingly annoyed.
‘’Is that your skill?’’ you weren't sure if you should add fuel to the fire, but to be honest.. you couldn't help it.
He didn’t respond to your teasing, in the meantime, taking the last ball.
‘’You know, it's okay if you miss it. At least you tried.’’ you wanted to encourage him and reassure that you appreciated his efforts. ‘’I don't need this prize.. It's fine, really..’’ you added, noting his apparent silence. He was too focused.
Once again, he prepared to throw..
…
...
…
He hit the spot perfectly, knocking down all the cans.
NULLA:
See? I told you I'd win you a prize!
I always keep my word. ;)
With a joyful step, he went behind the counter to pull out a plushie for you.
NULLA:
Which one do you want? You can have them all.
You don't really have enough space for booth full of plushies. You'll take one.
> > > 1. Fluffy White Dog plushie.
> > > 2. Black Cat plushie.
> > > 3. Classic Teady Bear.
CHOICE 1: FLUFFY WHITE DOG PLUSHIE
You chose a fluffy white dog, a wolf? It looked more like a wolf, to be honest.
Nulla knowing your answer handed it to you.
NULLA:
There you go.
…
It reminds me of something.
‘’What?”
NULLA:
Certain beings I have seen, now no longer exist. They were called Chimeras.
‘’Chimeras?” , This is the first time you have heard this name. ‘’Did they look like dogs?’’ you asked.
NULLA:
Something like that.
CHOICE 2: BLACK CAT PLUSHIE
You chose a black cat plushie, it’s adorable.
Nulla knowing your answer, took the plush and approached you.
‘’It reminds me a bit of you, you know?” you said with sincerity, giving him a tender smile.
Nulla looked at the plushie and fully examined it.
NULLA:
You think so?
‘’Yes, your eyes are very catlike. I like it.” you reassured him that you meant it in a positive context. You've already noticed that he's willing to do everything if you want him to, so atleast you want to make sure he knows you like him the way he is.
Nulla brought the plush cat close to his face.
NULLA:
So we look alike? Like twins?
You don't know why, but his expression and the way he spoke, made you laugh a little.
Nulla smiled broadly and handed the plushie to you.
NULLA:
Adorable~ If so, better keep it close.
CHOICE 3: CLASSIC TEADY BEAR
You chose a classic teddy bear. There's no need for more.
Nulla knowing your answer handed it to you.
NULLA:
There we go. A classic teddy bear, but for a very special person.
( continuation of all choices)
You continued by walking around the amusement park grounds. Talked a lot about completely irrelevant and random things, laughing. It was a really nice time.
…
That time was almost up..
NULLA:
I would like to apologize once again for today.
‘’Everything is fine, I told you, it's nothing. I'm not mad at you.’’ you wanted to make him aware of it. You know that you reacted the way you did, but after thinking about it for a while.. Why should you be angry when you finally saw some signs of joy in him? Although you need to admit, it was a bit random and impulsive, but.. it was his joy. Something you've never seen before. Not in his case.
NULLA:
I don't want to risk crossing any boundaries. If I have behaved inappropriately, I am truly sorry.
I just.. Hah, I seem to have lost touch with reality for a moment, I was deceived by my own imagination.
...
For a moment.. I thought you were really with me..
There was pain in his voice.
Night was slowly setting in.. The time spent with him went by really fast. Too fast.
Deep down, you hope that you’ll have more time to spend together, at least one more da y.
There must be a way, right?
Your thoughts cut you off from what was happening, that you didn't even notice when you and Nulla were standing on a small hill.
NULLA:
There should be a good view from this spot. Please watch closely.
As he said that, he put his arm around you and pointed his finger at a specific spot in the sky.
You did as he instructed and focused all your attention on it.
Something started to change. You noticed shapes, that began to form into letters, and letters began to turn into words.
Words.. "I Love You".
You stood there for a while. You wanted to look at Nulla , but as usual, he surpassed you by slightly poking you with his shoulder to get your attention. Reaching out his hand, he signaled you to focus your attention on it. Within seconds, his entire hand turned black, and after a while, you noticed smoke coming out of it.
Smoke began to form a small shape. It was a shape of a heart.
You didn't quite know how to react. All you knew was that your heart started beating faster. Without much thought, you reached out towards the heart to grab it, but as soon as you touched it, the form disappeared.
NULLA:
Right.. It won't work.
His hand returned to normal and touched your cheek.
NULLA:
As much as it pains me to say it, I think we have to go back now.
‘’I understand..” you didn't elaborate further, you just accepted it. You accepted that it was over.
The atmosphere was heavy. On the way back, Nulla didn't talk much, he didn’t even look at you.
It was hard for him. It was hard for both of you.
When you reached your destination, you began to prepare for sleep. Nulla , on the other hand, was ready to wish you good night, but you interrupted him.
‘’Can't you stay here?’’ you asked without hesitation.
NULLA:
Stay?
He looked slightly surprised.
‘’Yes, I want you to stay here next to me. It's a bed for two, you could certainly use some rest too.’’
You hoped that what you said wasn't weird.. The last thing you want is for things to get awkward.
Looking at his reaction, it looked like he was struggling with the answer.
‘’If you don't want to, I understand.’’ you added.
NULLA:
I do. It’s just..
Alright. Of course I'll stay.
A moment passed and Nulla was lying next to you, stroking your hair.
The action itself should have calmed you down, but it was the opposite, you knew there was nothing calming about it. Even if he was hiding it, you could see that deep down he was worried, and his action was to reassure you, when in fact he was the one who needs it.
Despite everything, however, your body was tired and keeping your eyes open wasn’t easy.
‘’You should get some rest too.” you doubt he's not tired. You know he's not fully human, but since he's eating, he certainly needs at least some sleep too.
NULLA:
I don't really want to close my eyes.
‘’Why?” you asked.
His face was visibly sad. However he tried to hide it, now it slipped out.
Although you could sense it in his voice and aura before, a slight smile remained on his face. Now that smile has disappeared.
NULLA:
Because if I do.. I'm afraid that when I open them, you won't be here anymore.
‘’It’s okay, I'll come back..” you said in a comforting tone. You don't want to leave him.
So w hy wouldn't you come back?
NULLA:
Will you really come back? Won't you forget me?
I'm aware that you can get bored eventually.. game.. writing.. You'll move on, when I'll never be able to forget you. I don't even want to forget you.
You’ll always be in my heart. You are my heart.
I hope that at least I can be in yours..
You hugged him. You didn't want to let him go, you knew he felt the same way. Why is it so complicated? Has he really done something so bad in the past that he’s punished this way? Constant suffering and desperation. You would really like to help him. No, you WANT to help him, which is why, among other things, you agreed to all of this, to this whole plan of destruction. You want to make his suffering disappear or at least reduce it in any way. Is it possible to make him happier?
‘’Nulla, I'll be back. I promise.” as you spoke, you let go of the embrace to look him in the face.
At first he looked at you uncertainly, but after a while he nodded, and a small smile appeared on his lips.
NULLA:
I trust you then.
He placed a kiss on your forehead, then slowly began to close his eyes.
You did the same.
And the last thing you saw..
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Please, come back to me....
Don't leave me…
I love you..
Please..
…
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was darkness.