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The blood stains his hands. The red liquid quickly spreads around the floor. Lights reflected on the crimson fluid, shining a red glow around him.
How?
How did it end like this?
It was not supposed to end like this.
It was not supposed to be Ivan dying.
And Till, he couldn't move, couldn't speak, his gaze locked at the fallen figure of Ivan, dead with a smile painted on his face. A smile that will haunt him for the rest of his life. (For the rest of time.)
Why did it have to be like this?
He was the one that was supposed to die.
How did Ivan die?
Why did Ivan have to sacrifice himself?
Ivan was suppose to live.
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Whywhywhywhywhywhywhy?
WHY DID IVAN DIE?!
Till keeps his eyes on him. Even as the lights shut off, darkening the entire stage and the rain kept pouring, hitting his body like soft bullets. He was cold. He was tired. He wanted to rest. Worse, he felt empty, as if his entire soul was shot away along with Ivan when the third bullet hit him .
The warmth of the kiss Ivan gave him just a moment ago lingered on his lips, washed away by the cold splashes of the rain.
Tears pricked his eyes, blurring his vision from the build up. Then, the hot liquid started to roll down his cheeks as his mouth gaped open.
He wants to scream.
He doesn't.
Why can't he scream?
He can't.
He felt so stupid, felt like the world's biggest blind, deaf, idiotic moron.
How could he not notice sooner?
If only he noticed Ivan sooner.
If only he chose him over a doomed one-sided attraction with a girl he knows he won't have a chance with.
If only he never ignored him in favour of Mizi.
If only there was a way for Ivan to be alive.
If only he could turn back time, make this all never happen.
Maybe he could live with Ivan in peace, away from the Alien Stage. Maybe he and Ivan could've rolled in the green grass forever if only he never ignored him.
Maybe.. but the past is the past and he can't change a thing.
He shuts his eyes, his head spinning. He felt nauseous, a feeling that's causing him to want to puke his guts out.
He tries standing up, but not a moment later he tumbles. He hit the back of his head, and everything went silent.