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They finally got rid of all the ability users. Even the remaining Decay of Angels members, their the only remaining left.
it's on Fyodors decision to cut Nikolai's throat right here and now, or keep him as his only companion.
He's staring at the fireworks, and Nikolai is staring at his face.
every feature of his face is perfect. hair, his eyes, his nose, his cheeks, his ears, everything fits perfectly on his face. skin as pale as porcelain.
He looked like a doll, such a delicate, beautiful, doll.
He most definitely knows Nikolai is staring at him. but, there's no where in his head to care. to turn to him and tell him he's being annoying. to stand up and leave Nikolai alone outside. to grab his wine glass and smash it upon Nikolai's head. Or maybe Nikolai can decide he wants to kill Fyodor now and push him off the balcony. but neither of them will.
Because Nikolai loves Fyodor, and Fyodor knows that.
in Fyodor's mind, loving another man is sinful, disgusting, but their both sinners. being human to Fyodor is, sinful.
Nikolai looks away and stares at the fireworks just as Fyodor is doing, now he just needs to tell Fyodor face-to-face.
"Dos-kun?"
"hm."
He indicates he's listening.
"The moon is pretty tonight, isn't it, Dos-kun?"
he doesn't care if he picks up on the confession, as long as Nikolai knows he finally was able to confess to his one, and only love.
he'll probably just brush it off as Nikolai being Nikolai as usual. just like all the other times. he's alone with him, watching the new years fireworks.
Here, with his one, first, only true love.
He doesn't dare look at Fyodor, see the disgust in his eyes.
"It is, isn't it?"
does that mean he feels the same? or is it just him brushing Nikolai off? he doesn't care which one it was, he's ecastic either way.
"it's getting late, you should go to bed Nikolai."
"of course! bed!" He gets up from his seat and looks at Fyodor. No, he doesn't look disgusted at Nikolai. that's even better!
"Byebye dos-kun!!! sleep well!" he walks from the balcony and practically runs out the door, almost slamming it.
He was able to confess his undying love to his dos-kun! and he wasn't even mad at him like usual!
he twirls around the halls. his love knows he has love for him! all his practice's to confess to his dos-kun had worked!
Tomorrow he'll make coffee for him and his dos-kun, like usual. Tomorrow he'll talk with dos-kun, like usual, tomorrow he'll go outside with his dos-kun, like usual, Tomorrow, they'll be normal humans, that's different from all their days together! ever since he met his dos-kun when he was a child, he fell for him. he has loved him ever since they were little kids.. and he was finally able to tell him after all these years! He'll make stuff for his dos-kun, and he'll kiss him every time he leaves, and he'll bring him to fancy places everyday, and he'll do everything for his dos-kun! he stumbles around the dark in his room and the scattered stuff on the floor and jumps on his bed. him and his dos-kun are meant for eachother! their soulmates, born for eachother and eachother only! oh how he's waited for this day!
hm.. somethings missing..
oh! his cape, he left it in his dos-kuns room! he'll have a extra reason to talk to him all night until they both fall asleep on the table on the balcony! he jumps out of his bed and runs to his dos-kuns room. he knocks on the door.
No answer, he knocks again, and again, and again, and again and again. he must be asleep.. he opens the door and peeks in it, dark as ever. he walks in it.
there it is! he grabs his cape from atop the dresser. he starts walking out. but looks out of the balcony, rookie mistake.
his dos-kun is still looking out to the fireworks.. so their still going! so pretty and colorful lighting up his dos-kun. he watches him. so beautiful.. just like usual. he realizes something, he's climbing on the balcony.. wait.. what is he doing? that's dangerous.. there's no way he's going to.. no... I need to stop him.. he's going to fall...
he runs across the room. why is the room longer then usual? why is it more stuffy then usual? why does he have lower stamina then before? he trips on dos-kuns bag, nothing but pills.. so. much. pills. there's no way he was gonna use them all, right? god, the fall hurt worse then usual. he struggles to get up, kicking the pills everywhere.
he yells out a weak "dos-kun", why is his voice quieter then usual? he gets up from the ground, he's getting more tired. no.. he can't give up now. he needs to stop his one and only love from falling to his death.. he trips again, another pill bottle. goddammit, he's going to die..
"dos.. no.. please..", he struggles to get up again, he's going to jump.. he's.. going to.. jump!
he doesn't even realize he yelled again. this time, a much louder time.
"FYODOR!"
he heard him.. he definitely heard him..
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he finally makes it to the balcony, and just in time to catch him.
his palms are more sweaty then usual. he can't hold into fyodor's hands forever.. why is he weaker then usual?
no.. no.. no.. no.. no..
he's gonna drop him.. he's gonna die...
"let go of me." why is fyodor's voice louder then usual?
"no.. no!"
he's crying.. both Nikolai and Fyodor are crying..
Fyodor is.. crying?.. this is the first time he's saw him cry.. ever since they met, he never cried.
"I said to let go of me Nikolai."
"I won't! I can't!
"why won't you just listen to me for once?"
"please Fyodor.. grab onto the railing.. please, I can't lose you."
a faint ringing in his ear.
he finally reaches up onto the railing and Nikolai pulls him up.
and then he falls.
Nikolai falls.
he hears a scream.
it takes him some time to realize it's his.
he hears his name.
he realizes it's Fyodor who yelled it..
was he planning on leaving him alone after their mission?..
god.. no.. now he's gonna leave his dos-kun alone in this world..
he hits the water.
the fireworks are more louder then usual..
god, it's cold.. no.. it's warm... it's red....