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EXT. FRONT PORCH OF DEAN AND HIS WIFE'S HOME IN THE WOODS. DEAN AND CAS SIT IN ROCKING CHAIRS.
CAS
I don't remember you being a lightweight.
DEAN
Don't remember you being a little bitch. Wait, yeah I do! Hahahaha!
CAS
Wasn't even funny! You're way too drunk. You rugged types are so abrasive.
DEAN
Ha! It's all that French blood in your lineage. Makes you a pussy.
CAS
The French are famously rebellious.
DEAN
Famously gay is what they are!
CAS
What are you, fifteen?
DEAN
Guess you make me feel young or something like that.
CAS
Ha! You are drunk.
DEAN
Why didn't we ever get married?
CAS
. . .
DEAN
Say something.
CAS
You're drunk, man.
DEAN
Drunk enough to say that shit.
CAS
Why'd you have to say it.
DEAN
You text me outta nowhere after two years sayin' you miss me! And you wanna come visit!
The hell else am I supposed to make of that?
CAS
Can friends not miss each other!?
DEAN
Are you trying to tell me you're not in love with me? You think I'll buy that?
CAS
Of course not!
DEAN
'Course not what!?
CAS
Of course I'm not trying to tell you that!
DEAN
So what are you trynna tell me?
CAS
I have been in love with you, jackass. You knew in high school.
DEAN
I ain't know that.
CAS
. . . Dude.
DEAN
Okay I did. What would have changed? If I told you I knew?
CAS
Maybe everything.
DEAN
Right.
CAS
Maybe nothing.
DEAN
...Right.
CAS
Your wife is inside.
DEAN
Right.
CAS
Stop saying that and fucking talk to me.
DEAN
You said it yourself. I'm married, nothing's gonna change. Just forget it.
CAS
You drop the biggest bomb of our entire relationship and want me to just forget it?
DEAN
Yeah.
CAS
You're ridiculous. You just blew up everything. Why did you say it?
DEAN
Why'd you fuck off to the city?
CAS
Excuse me?
DEAN
Why did you leave?
CAS
Jobs are better there.
DEAN
Or did you just get tired of screwing the same girls?
CAS
How honest do you wanna get right now?
DEAN
Real honest.
CAS
Yeah. I got tired of them. My turn. Do you love her?
DEAN
My wife?
CAS
Yeah.
DEAN
. . . She's great.
CAS
You're a scumbag. How could you do that?
DEAN
Jealous I didn't run off with your ass instead?
CAS
Yeah! I am!
DEAN
Right! I bet you think about me all the time when you're bangin' a new chick every week.
CAS
I do.
DEAN
Shut up.
CAS
I think about you every time. I cry when they leave. That honest enough for you?
DEAN
Why do you do it?
CAS
Waiting for the time I do it and you don't cross my mind.
DEAN
. . . You're a mess.
CAS
You trapped a woman in a fake marriage.
DEAN
'Cause I'm the only asshole here who uses women?
CAS
You're deflecting.
DEAN
I didn't realize how empty my marriage was until you left. First three years was fine, 'cause you were still around all the time.
Didn't feel like I was missing anything. It was easier to pretend I was happy with her when you were always. . . there.
After you left I started missin' you so much. Me and her got real distant. Have been ever since. She must've figured it out by now.
CAS
. . . I'm sorry. I couldn't keep watching you be married to someone who wasn't me.
DEAN
Sorry I made you watch that.
CAS
. . . You really knew I liked you in high school?
DEAN
We didn't act how other guy friends did.
CAS
How's that?
DEAN
We were shy 'round each other.
CAS
You liked me too?
DEAN
'Course I did.
CAS
I bet everyone knew.
DEAN
Don't say that.
CAS
You heard the rumors about us.
DEAN
Knock it off! It was fuckin' embarrassing.
CAS
Imagine how embarrassing it'd be if we ran off together.
DEAN
I don't even wanna think about that.
CAS
You don't?
DEAN
No.
. . . Where does that leave us?
CAS
I don't know, Dean.
. . . Want a cigarette?
DEAN
Gave those up. I just eat these lollipops now.
CAS
Lollipops? You loved smoking.
DEAN
Wife didn't like kissing a smoker. I put it away.
CAS
What's really stopping you from picking up a pack?
DEAN
Everyone's gonna talk about it. Don't wanna hear "Dean's smokin' again" at church on Sunday.
CAS
You care too much about what they think.
DEAN
Whatever. I have my lollipops.
CAS
That enough for you?
DEAN
Better than listening to them talk.
CAS
Is it?
DEAN
Yes.
CAS
I think you'd be happier with cigarettes.
DEAN
You would think that.
CAS
You could move. Smoke cigarettes again. Far away from everyone.
DEAN
This is home.
CAS
Home could be somewhere else.
DEAN
Wouldn't be the same.
CAS
Maybe that's a good thing.
DEAN
Maybe. You want a lollipop?
CAS
Hell no.
DEAN
It's easier like this, Cas.
CAS
You're a pussy.
DEAN
I guess.
DEAN (CONT'D)
. . . I miss you.
CAS
I miss you too but I don't know what you want from me.
DEAN
Come around more.
CAS
So you get to see me while I have to watched you be married?
DEAN
Honestly? Yeah, that is what I want.
CAS
That's messed up.
DEAN
Will you do it?
CAS
And if the town starts to talk again? Can you handle that?
"Cas's been visiting an awful lot. He's over at Dean's place all the time. You think it means anything?"
Can you hear that at church on Sunday?
DEAN
I don't know! So?
CAS
So what?
DEAN
Will you come around more?
CAS
. . . Of course I will.
DEAN
Thank you.
CAS
Dean...
DEAN
Yeah?
CAS
Can I kiss you? Is that asking too much?
DEAN
. . . I think it is.
CAS
Okay.
DEAN
I'll take that cigarette though.