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It happened as I was walking on my first day back at school. I was late, but even so, I stood frozen at the peak of the cherry blossom lined hill. I was trying to muster up enough courage to actually go down to Hikarizaka Private High School, where I was a third year (again.) I was whispering to myself about Anpan, one of my favorite kinds of rolls, to encourage me. When a boy came up behind me. I, of course, did not notice him and continued talking to myself, “Do you like this school? I really, really love it. But nothing can stay unchanged. Fun things… Happy things… They can't possibly stay unchanged. Even so,can you keep on loving this place?” I asked myself. I then heard an intake of breath , which startled me a bit, since I didn’t know he was there before, from the boy behind me,
”Just find th--” he started to say but then made an odd sound, like he was interrupted by some… Unknown source abruptly stopping him from speaking. He then backtracked, “er… never mind i… Sorry you weren't talking to me were you?” He asked in a completely different tone of voice than previously, before stepping forward awkwardly, and dashing down the hill out of sight as if his life depended on it.
There was something… Strangely familiar about the blue-haired boy, but I couldn't put my finger on why, since I didn't think I had ever seen him before (Maybe he was a customer at the bakery?). As I looked at the spot where he had stood before running off, I suddenly had the strangest feeling like for some reason I thought that conversion was supposed to have ended much differently then it had. Then another feeling, a powerful urge to bolt after him as fast as I could, as if my life somehow depended on it (even though I knew it was bad for my condition.)
I only hesitated a moment before I sprinted down the hill as fast as I could. Making my weak legs swing back and forth so quickly that it almost hurt, trying to catch up to the strange-blue-haired boy that I felt I knew from somewhere. At first I thought I had lost him, but I somehow found the stamina to make myself run even faster than before, ignoring the burning sensation in my legs. The boy finally came into view but he was close to the school gates, so i didn't have very much time left (i didn’t know why i could not find him later and talk to him again , but i felt this had to happen now, like talking to him now was the most important thing i would ever do.) desperate for him to stop i tried calling out to him,”Tomoya (how do i know his name?) wait!” The boy (Tomoya?) stopped, stiffening upon hearing his name. He turned around slowly, the wind blowing the hair off his face, he had tears in his eyes (why was he crying? I only said his name… that i shouldn’t know.)
“Nagisa… You remember? Tomoya asked in a tone so filled with anguish it almost knocked me over
“Yes! (Remember what though?) No! (But i know his name!) I don't know! My head… It's like I have a bunch of jumbled memories scrambling my mind. But for some reason, I know that talking to you today, right now, before I go to school again, is the most important event in my life!
Tomoya hastated for a moment before he raced up to me, almost tackling me in a hug “I love you Nagisa! I love you more than I've felt about anything in my life….” he said, tightening his hold around my shoulders while he sobbed into my hair.
“I love you too Tomoya with everything i have ( but when did that happen?)” i said back to him
“But if we keep going as we did before you might die again! I can't let that happen! You have to live! The world without you shouldn't exist! I… I can't live through that again…” Tomoya almost shouted at me.
“I know my love (know what?), but I couldn't live my life knowing you were out there somewhere alone, without me… ( A vision of me and him on the beach talking about what name to give our child, another of Tomoya looking up at me as I drifted off somewhere farther and more painful than sleep.) Because… Because, if you went back in time, I'd… I'd want to love you all over again, I wouldn't give up one moment, not even a second of that precious time, even if it will always end the same way every time.” I said back to him, tightening my own hold around this body.
Somewhere, faraway in an empty snow covered field, a lone girl smiled, her one wish granted.
FIN