Chapter Text
Her little brother was gone.
Kotone was supposed to protect Makoto, it had always been that way ever since that night on Moonlight Bridge. A big sister, even a big sister by mere minutes, was still supposed to protect her younger brother.
And she'd failed.
The twins had done their best that night, fighting side by side against Nyx. They could prevent the fall, use the power within them to seal the great Death away. Not just the power within them, but the power they drew from the friendships they'd formed over the past year. They would do it even if it was the last thing they'd ever do. Literally.
But when the time came, Makoto pushed her away. He took her half of Death Itself from her and made himself the seal, leaving her devastated.
Leaving her alone.
What hurt the most was the month after their battle with Nyx. Everyone had lost their memories of the fight, their year together, the links they'd forged. But not her. Not him.
She did her best to act 'normal'. To act like her brother getting weaker and weaker wasn't anything to worry about. To act like seeing him holding on by his fingertips, just until graduation day, wasn't tearing her up inside. To not yell and shout and scold him for taking this responsibility all by himself.
For leaving her behind.
"You've protected me all our lives. Let me protect you. Just this once," he had said.
She couldn't argue with that.
It wasn't until graduation day that the rest of SEES remembered. She had to almost carry him to the roof where Aigis, the first to reawaken her memories, was waiting. Kotone laid her brother down on the mechanical girl's lap and sat next to them, holding his hand. She could still feel the tears she had shed stinging her cheeks.
That has been three weeks ago.
Whenever she closed her eyes Kotone remembered the last moments she'd spent with him. After that day they had brought him back to the dorm, and feared the worst. The next morning those fears became reality and Kotone lost a piece of herself.
After that, Kotone fell into a deep depression. She had taken to sleeping in Makoto's room. Everyone else had grown used to the twins ignoring the rules about the gendered floors and they certainly weren't going to object now. Not when she could be heard crying herself to sleep on some nights.
But then she began seeing the same dream night after night. She was chasing after him, calling Makoto's name… but Kotone could never catch up.
After their parents died she had promised to protect him. Taking care of him was her reason for living. She made it her purpose for living. Now that promise was gone… unfulfilled.
If only there was a way for her not to feel this pain. To turn off her feelings. If she was a machine like Aigis, maybe she wouldn't feel this way.
