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Iwaizumi stands at his gym locker after practice scratching at the scent blockers on his neck that have become slightly damp due to the sweat that he worked up during practise. It was a rule for most high schools, that when doing sports on property that everyone must wear blockers. It was both a blessing and a curse Iwaizumi had decided, a blessing because everyone can push their limits a bit more without the fear that their minds would get clouded over with all the scents flowing around in the room; a curse just for the fact of how uncomfortable they were! Wearing them for so long and mixing in the sweat they become itchy very fast. However, even though practice was over no one was allowed to take off the blockers until they left the change room and into fresh air. Iwaizumi was about ready to leave when Oikawa burst through the door.
"Good work today everyone!" The alpha's smile is almost blinding.
The team responds with mixes of "You too captain." and "Thanks cap."
"Since you all worked so hard I thought I would reward you all with some juicy gossip about yours truly!" Oikawa's smile wavered a bit. To the untrained eye it was unnoticeable, but to Iwaizumi, who has grown up with that face and who has practically studied that smile; and more recently has fallen in love with that man. He saw the wavered smile and the small twitch on Oikawa's outer eye. Iwaizumi can almost read it plain as day. Oikawa was nervous.
"Oikawa... What are you doing? If you have something to tell us, just tell us man." Matsukawa asked tiredly, the alpha had also worked up a sweat from practise and he seemed eager to leave, as he too scratched at the scent blockers that were still covering his scent glands.
"Well," Oikawa starts, "This is some big news so please wait till the end for any questions."
"Crying out loud Trashawa! Spit it out. I want to go home." Iwaizumi was getting antsy. He was tired, hungry, and he still had to do some studying for a test that was happening next week. He also was put a bit on edge watching Oikawa seemingly struggling to tell them something and what really got under his skin was that he had no idea what Oikawa was going to say. Iwaizumi was the alpha's best friend, his closest friend, they grew together! So, not knowing what has him so hesitant, really bugs Iwaizumi a bit.
"Ok, ok, fine! As you all know, I am the school's best looking alpha!" The statement was met with a room filled with groans.
"You wish! You don't even make my top ten!" Hanamaki shouts out at the alpha.
"What? Babe? You have a list! You look at alphas other than me!" Matsukawa faked a hurt face as he clung on to the slightly shorter omega. "I guess I'll just have to follow you around and beat up every alpha you look at to show you I'm the best!" Matsukawa threatened and proceeded to shove his head into Hanamaki's neck to try to get a small sniff of his covered scent. Making Hanamaki laugh a bit.
Iwaizumi was reaching his breaking point fast. "Oh my god. Guys please shut up and keep it in your pants! You are not the only ones in the room and that is not how you set an example for the underclassmen!" Iwaizumi barked out. He didn't need his scent to show his disappointment and annoyance to the couple.
A quiet "Sorry mom." came from the two as Matsukawa let go of his mate.
"I'M COURTING SOMEONE!"
All eyes flew to Oikawa. The already quiet room seemed even more quiet. Almost deafeningly quite. At that moment Iwaizumi couldn't breath. As he looked at Oikawa, he could see that the alpha didn't move, waiting for his team's response. His family's response. This was an unexpected announcement to say the least.
"Funny joke dude, what omega would go out with you?"
"UGH! GUYS I'M SERIOUS!"
"who is it? What's their name? Do we know them? They do realize you are this pack's alpha, right? You'll still hang out with us, right? Oh my god, are you going to leave us?" Maki started to panic.
"Maki calm down, Oikawa isn't going anywhere. Right captain?"
"What!! Of course not! I'm not going anywhere! What kind of pack alpha do you take me for?!" Oikawa yells quickly to calm down the room.
Everyone still has sent patches on but Iwaizumi is sure that he could almost smell the rooms collective distress at the thought of one of the pack leaders leaving so suddenly, or maybe it was just Iwaizumi sensing his own sudden feeling of dread; However, it seems that everyone calms down at Oikawa's reassurance.
Iwaizumi is frozen in shock staring at Oikawa. 'How didn't I know? Why didn't he tell me?' It felt like a knife was plunged into Iwaizumi's gut and some cruel monster was twisting it. He felt sick. He needed out. Right now; but the feeling of dread kept his feet where they were. Iwaizumi loves Oikawa. This is not news to him. He realized he had feelings for Oikawa when they first entered high school but within the past few months they've grown into something so overwhelming that he wasn't even sure how to breathe after hearing what Oikawa had to say. Iwaizumi can honestly say for the first time, he is completely thankful of the scent blockers because without it he knows that his depressed scent would be filling the room.
"well... Good for you Cap! When do we get to meet the lucky omega?" Watari asked, trying to lighten up the room a bit.
"More like unlucky." Makki loudly whispered. Getting a few giggles from others.
"HEY!" Oikawa shouted, faking hurt; however Iwaizumi could see that Oikawa was happy that his team didn't have a bad reaction and was seemingly looking forward to meeting his courtmate.
" I was actually thinking of inviting her to watch practice next week, maybe Wednesday?" Oikawa offered out the idea to the team to watch their reactions. All heads slowly start to turn towards Iwaizumi.
At first he was confused but he realized that it's because they were waiting for his answer. As the pack's head omega the team rarely did anything without his 'okay'. That's also when he noticed a single set of eyes giving him a concerned look. He quickly looked away from Hanamaki's gaze and right into Oikawa's pleading one. He decides quickly that looking at anyone right now isn't best so he turns around to his locker to collect the last of his things so he can leave as soon as possible.
Iwaizumi takes a deep breath and answers the way he knows everyone is expecting. "Do whatever you want Shittykawa. As long as no ones distracted during then it's fine I guess." He huffs out, swinging his gym bag over one shoulder and his school bag on the other, and starts walking towards the change room's door.
"You guys better hurry up and leave, it's getting late." He barks over his shoulder at his team.
"CRAP! IF I'M LATE AGAIN MA'S GONNA KILL ME!" Kindaichi yells and starts to rapidly shove things into his bag earning laughter from the team.
Swinging the door open, Iwaizumi looks at Oikawa. With the team distracted he asks "Are we still going to walk home?" However deep down he already knew the answer.
"Sorry Iwa-chan! But I'm walking Koko-chan home." His cheeks turned a light shade of pink as he responded.
Iwaizumi just nodded and left, closing the door behind him.
His walk home is outwardly quiet, the usual friendly banter gone. The streets Iwaizumi walks on are silent. His mind on the other hand is loud; It replays Oikawa's announcement, it replays the blush on Oikawa's perfect cheeks, it replays the heavy feeling in Iwaizumi's chest and stomach, it replays the days leading up to this one, trying to find hints that Oikawa had a girlfriend. His mind was simultaneously also questioning everything, how long has it been going on? A few days? Weeks? Months? Was she a fan of Oikawa's that finally got her chance? Was she a third year? Has he talked to her before? Has he sat next to her in class unknowingly? How long will the relationship last? Are they both in it for the long haul? Has Iwaizumi lost his chance with Oikawa? Is he destined to watch from the sidelines as Oikawa and "Koko-chan" live a happy life and he dies alone?
Before he knows it he's unlocking his front door. His mother yells a welcome home from her office and tells him there's dinner in the fridge for him. He yells back a thanks. But instead of eating he decides he's too tired to do anything other than sleeping at this moment.
He walks into his room, strips off his clothes and falls into his bed. Forgoing the much needed shower to sleep instead. He tells himself that he'll shower in the morning and change his sheets too.
However, his hope for sleep is crushed. Because every time he closes his eyes he sees Tooru. He sees his smile, and his stupidly perfect hair, and his beautiful brown eyes that brings heat to Iwaizumi's chest.
The sudden feeling of coldness hitting his ear startles him. Wiping away the cold spot at his ear he realizes it's a teardrop. He's been crying. For how long? He wasn't sure but the sudden realization opened the floodgates to his eyes and he flips onto his stomach and sob quietly into his pillow.
He feels broken, he feels like the one constant in his life is gone. The one thing he held on to let go of him. He knows that he will still see Oikawa at school often but the after school and weekend hang outs will lessen and when they do end up hanging out it won't just be the two of them, but be Oikawa and his girlfriend with Iwaizumi third-wheeling.
Iwaizumi knows deep down he will eventually get used to it (never over it but he could live with that). He knows that he may never be able to find someone that makes him feel the way he feels with Oikawa but he knows he can find someone that will love him and he will learn to love them back. But that's in the future. A far future he can't see clearly, as of now he only can see his future of loneliness and a feeling of constant loss. That's what he feels now.
He eventually falls into a restless sleep.
Iwaizumi is already completely lost without him.