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    Spencer had always found just enough reasons to keep living, tenuous though they were at times. Then Emily dies.

    Spencer attempts suicide in the wake of Emily's death. The List, the one in his mind detailing the Pros and Cons of his continued existence fails in the wake of losing her. Spencer is left attempting to rebuild the trust of those around him in the aftermath of his failure.

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    A series of phone calls between Spencer Reid and various members of the BAU post S2E15: Revelations.

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    After a lifetime of feeling like he didn’t fit in, Dr Spencer Reid had finally hit his stride. He was the FBI’s youngest-ever recruit, a valuable member of the BAU and he even had a few people he could call friends. Life was looking up.

    Then Gideon leaves with nothing but a letter in a cold, empty cabin, sending Reid into a spiral of self-loathing as his old demons resurface and he struggles to navigate new challenges.

    With his physical, mental and emotional wellbeing on the line, will the team realise they are missing the signs of what's really going on before it's too late?

     

    TRIGGER WARNING: This fic deals with an eating disorder and some very unhealthy thinking. Do not read if you are under 18 or if this content will be upsetting to you, and do not use this story to trigger yourself. Please take care when reading and heed the tags.

    SPOILER WARNING: Follows canon and contains spoilers up to mid-season 6.

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    Every morning, he lets out a rattled breath of relief because John doesn't know yet; he can still pretend everything hasn't changed.

    Sometimes it's the smallest things, rather than criminal master plans or elaborate family secrets, which ultimately destroy what a man has fought to preserve.

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    04 Dec 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    The HIV one!

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    If in some rare and far-flung universe, Derek did want to date Spencer Reid, he wouldn’t want to date this version of him: an HIV-positive ex-addict, reckless and unsafe. He wouldn’t want to date a man so heartbroken and lovesick that he got black-out drunk and slept with someone just because he bore a passing resemblance to Derek.

    Spencer spends the evening staring into the mirror instead of going out with the rest of the team, desperately trying to find the man he was three days ago under the burden of broken suffering he seems to have picked up along with the diagnosis, the positive test, the sympathetic doctors.

    or; Spencer contracts HIV. It all falls apart after that.

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    28 Nov 2025

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    HIV Spencer

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    Spencer in no way expects the whole world to gasp in awe whenever he runs an algorithm faster than a computer could, or produces an esoteric fact he read about once a decade ago. But whenever Alvez smiles when everybody else rolls their eyes, it kind of knocks the wind out of him.
    So Spencer is in desperate need of an argument to convince himself that it’s a good thing that nothing will ever happen between them, and that all his mental power currently dedicated to daydreaming about Luke Alvez would be better spent literally anywhere else.
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    Part character study, part romance, in which Spencer Reid grapples with his thoughts and feelings for one Luke Alvez.

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