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    He should be glad of it. He doesn’t want people to know he’s struggling, and they don’t. But why doesn’t Buck know? He’s always known, always seen through Eddie’s carefully constructed walls and carved himself a door into them. Even when Eddie resisted, even when he pushed back, Buck ducked his head and shoved through and found the tender hurt Eddie was guarding, cupped his hands around it and held until it didn’t ache so much.

    And now Eddie’s bleeding internally, swollen with regret, and Buck doesn’t say a thing. Eddie can’t ask him to. If he opens his mouth, he might just start screaming.

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    There's distance between Eddie and Buck. Eddie isn't falling apart. These are two equally true statements.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    “Can I-and I apologize if this is overstepping, in any way,” Alex continues, her voice mercifully dissolving the mental image Eddie had cursed himself with. 

    “But, since we’re here, I just wanted to offer."

    She digs around in her purse for a moment, and Eddie looks at Buck. He raises his eyebrows in a question, and Buck shrugs. 

    Sure. Now he knows what Eddie is thinking.

    Alex discards her purse and looks up at Buck and Eddie. 

    “Well, I can’t find my cards, but I’d be happy to give you guys my information.” 

    Eddie narrows his eyes in genuine uncertainty. 

    Buck leans forward, elbows on his knees, and asks the question they’re both thinking. 

    “Information for what, exactly?” 

    “Right, sorry, I wasn’t super clear,” Alex says with a shake of her head. She smiles brightly. “I do couples counseling, too. First session is on me, if you guys are interested. I have plenty of experience with long-term partners. LGBT included, so you’d feel right at home!” 

    Eddie leans forward now, mouth open in shock. 

    “How–” 

    Eddie doesn’t finish the thought, because Buck is choking. Of course.

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    the 9x08 coda where Alex the SMART lady clocks them bad

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    23 Jan 2026

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    “Would you date me if I was a girl?”

    Eddie's question surprises them both, air between them full of breath-held tension before Buck scoffs, eyebrows furrowing but mouth curling into a toothy smile. 

    “Dude, I would date you right now,” he answers easily, not really stopping to consider the other options. Then, he volleys back, “Would you date me if I was a girl?

    Eddie raises his eyes to Buck’s high, dark ceiling and does actually think about it for a lengthy moment, turning the concept over in his hands like a Rubik's cube. He tries to imagine Buck as a woman, dirty blond curls framing his face, muscular build, same baby blue eyes and the pink birthmark. Not much would change in the end and Eddie already likes all the parts of Buck he knows now. 

    “Yeah, Buck, I would.”

    Buck smiles wider at that, clearly pleased, and buries a yawn in his pillow. His fingers go a little slack as their interconnected hands rest between them, clearly inching further towards sleep. “Maybe you should,” he mumbles.

     

    or: Buck and Eddie sleep together platonically through the years of their friendship, unaware they're falling in love.

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    14 Jan 2026

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    That would be the pattern. That would be the smart choice, statistically, intuitively. It was his pattern, after all. But once again, he just couldn’t call a spade a spade, not when his heart was saying, well, “Hearts.”

    Eddie leaned back a bit, a brief look of surprise in his eyes, before shaking it off entirely.

    “Switching it up, Buckley?” He chuckled, bending the card upward so only he could peak. A smile crept across his face, though it looked as if Eddie was biting it back. He held the card fully in his hand now, still shielded from Buck’s view, and stared at it with an unfamiliar emotion taking shape along the line of his jaw. Finally, rather than setting it on the table, he placed the card into Buck’s hand, Eddie’s fingers pressing gently against his palm.

    More weight. Buck sucked in a breath, pushing ever so slightly into Eddie’s touch. His thumb finally grabbed onto the card now in his hand, as he finally looked down.

    A king of hearts.

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    Buck follows the pattern. And despite months of Buck's distance and avoidance, he finds that it always leads back to Eddie.

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    12 Jan 2026

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    ret·​ro·​grade ˈre-trə-ˌgrād

    1. being in motion in a direction contrary to that of the general motion of similar bodies
    2. affecting memories of a period prior to a precipitating event (such as brain injury or disease)
    3. to go back

    After an accident leaves Eddie with amnesia, Buck takes him home to recover, and in the absence of his memories, Eddie reveals parts of himself he’s kept hidden for years.

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    10 Jan 2026